Well, with the giveaways now over, I am excited to start writing again on the blog! The 12 Days of Christmas Giveaways are so fun to do! I am so excited to have been a part of it again. Thanks to all who participated!
Gosh, so much has happened in two weeks! Where to start?
1] I bought a new pair of shoes. Always a good thing :)
2] I got some really great news at my job- which I will share on my blog at a later time (definitely a testimony post!)
3] I have met some amazing new people at my church. It has been so fulfilling to share the Lord with friends :)
4] Christmas tree up (check!).
5] I changed gyms! And started Zumba! Love it so far for all you Zumbateers out there. Definitely brings out my Beyonce side, ha ha!
So, about 3 months ago, God took me through a very hard season. It made me question my abilities, my faith, and really how and where my feet were planted. During the season, I didn't really see all God was trying to teach me and show me. I am still realizing things to this day!
One thing personally that had been going on with me is that I wasn't fulfilled in certain areas of my life. I was not content with things that were going on. I felt my heart desiring more and really asking the question "is this really how it's supposed to be?" and not being happy if that answer was yes.
I looked over through the past and realized there were many times that I should have taken a step forward and left certain things behind, but didn't because I couldn't see what was in front of me. It was like I was okay being unhappy because of the fear of the unknown. It reminds me of the story in the Bible when Moses was leading the Jews to the Promise Land and away from slavery but when they got to the red sea and the pharaoh's soldiers were behind them, they cried and said they wanted to go back to being slaves because they didn't want to die. But then Moses split the red sea!
The point of that is we often don't want to take the step that is needed because we do not see the outcome of doing that. We don't want to take that leap of faith. The Jews rather had gone back to slaves than trust that God was going to save them and bring them through to a much better place. In fact, when Moses cried out to God asking for His help, God said " Why are you crying out to me? Get moving!" Exodus 14:15
I think many of us wait for this big sign to move on or take that leap of faith (guilty!) when in reality if you have the feeling to take that step it could very well be for a reason. I think we often let one negative thought or feeling really dictate what we should do when it comes to taking that step.
So instead of waiting for a huge sign, I took a step with my faith in tact. I need trust that God has better things to come for me. I am starting to see there were signs all around me- I just chose to be blind to them because of different thoughts or emotions. I totally get what the Bible means when it said the heart will deceive you. Gosh heart- not cool!
But that's why no matter what, I know I need to put my trust in Jesus. I may not get things right away, but I know if I am trusting Him, He will continue to lead me to better things.